just some unspoken thoughts

Midnight thoughts  — 25 December,2016

Midnight thoughts 

They say what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger but that is not true. I cannot help but wonder that what doesn’t kill you, have the power to break you little by little on the inside.

You might not be dying on the outside but you’re slowly decaying on the inside. And that is worse than simply dying once and for all. 

Turning point  — 20 November,2016

Turning point 

One of the best feelings any bookworm/person could ever feel is when you are reading a book and you know with absolute certainty it will change you forever, that you actually start to feel the change happening deep inside. You feel your perspective changing, like the lens you’ve been seeing the world through is different, somehow clearer, showing the finest details. It feels like your horizons are broadening and nothing feels as good as that! 

I’ve only felt this kind of feeling and went through such a change twice in my life: 

  1.  The Alchemist- Paulo Coehlo 
  2. The Forty Rules Of Love- Elif Shafak 

Given the names of these authors, one can only expect their books to be as great, and to me, they were a turning point in my life. Those were the books that while reading them I knew my life will never be the same. 

I had a huge problem recently, feeling like my connection to God is being strained in some way, that I’m unable to reach Him in the right way, to be close to Him in the best way possible and to worship Him rightfully as He deserves. Yes, the “Quran” is our guidance in finding God and worshiping Him. But, “The Forty Rules Of Love” showed me a different insight on how to worship God. It wasnt like I didn’t worship at all, i just felt like I am doing the deeds for the sake of it, out of habit, maybe, but not having my heart 100% through in it. Always feeling like something is missing. 

I used to think there are proper routes one’s supposed to take to reach God, and the one i was taking was somehow wrong, but I realized that, as a matter of fact, there isn’t a fixed way to reach God and worship Him rightfully. Simply because all of us worship in a different way, coming from different backgrounds, taking different routes to the same destination. No route is greater than the other, nor faster or easier. And with God being merciful enough, He accepts every way you could ever take in order to reach Him. All you need to have is a pure heart, an open mind and soul, to let God through. 

     “Seek God and He shall find you”

That is one of the quotes that made me stop and think, as simple as it may seem, maybe I wasn’t seeking God enough and hence I couldn’t find him. 
Another one was when she quoted Rumi and said:

      “They say there’s a thin line between losing yourself in God and losing your mind” 

And to me, these quotes couldn’t be anymore relatable. 

21 but still a child at the heart.  — 29 September,2016

21 but still a child at the heart. 

I realized that since i recently turned 21, i am supposed to “adult up” somehow. But that, is the main reason why i keep my inner child unleashed. I am still a kid deep down inside, trying to ignore the responsibilities that come along with growing up, holding them at bay. 

I was never known for backing out or quitting but i simply can’t do being an adult 24/7. Sometimes i just need to be that little girl who can eat cotton candy at the local fair, and could be ecstatic with a balloon and chocolates. Other times i need to care about my studies, plan out my future and work for it, but trust me, that sometimes gets really really exhausting. Planning everything ahead is something i grew up with, maybe it’s my obsession with perfection, i don’t know, but what i do know is with all the organization, I sometimes need to be spontaneous, make impulsive decisions and just let it go. 

Just like right now. 

How long shall you wait…  — 19 June,2016

How long shall you wait… 

It’s been long..

Long since you’ve been treated for what you’re worth

Long since you’ve felt loved, cared for

Long since you’ve loved yourself for what it is, flawed or not

Long since you’ve believed in yourself, trusted your gut feeling. 

Long since you’ve said no and stood your ground rather than going with the flow. 

Long since you’ve felt that you finally belonged, to someone, somewhere. 

Long since you’ve felt that you at last have reached a place to call home. 

How long shall you wait? 

Till you actually believe what’s happening to you, 

That you’re a worthless person, unloved, with no self-confidence at all

Or till you lose the right to your opinion, your capability to voice it. 

Or will you always be a traveler, even at heart! 

Do not wait a damn minute longer, for all these matters are yours, 

Do not let it shape you

Because you’re only defined by yourself! 

Ramadan workouts  — 10 June,2016

Ramadan workouts 

People think ramadan isn’t for working out or maintaining a regular exercising schedule. Well, on the contrary, during ramadan, workouts are encouraged, but with few modifications. 

I talked before about how to do a proper jogging session and how to combine it with some home-based simple exercises to enhance the benefits! 

This time, i’ll talk about how to keep your regular exercising program in ramadan. 

1. Never workout after eating. It’s dangerous since all your blood is directed to the stomach and digestive system! However, wait out for minimum of 2hrs, have your iftar, pray and then go on with your preferred exercising routine. 

There 2 main forms of exercising:

* if you want to burn them fats, then cardio workouts are your route. That consists of a treadmill, cycling machines and aerobic exercises. Or could be replaced by a good jogging session.

* If you’ve already burned the fats and have reached your body’s fat index, then you should start either bulking (for guys preferably) or shaping and toning your muscles (for girls preferably). This consists of strengthening and endurance exercises, by weight lifting either via machines that target specific muscle groups or doing free weight lifting. Strengthening depends on more weights less repetitions, its for increasing the muscles mass, while endurance depends on less weights more repetitions, its for maintaining a good stamina. 

2. Have a fasted workout once or twice a week. Preferably on early morning when the weather is good and you’re still hydrated. Don’t wear yourself out in the fasted workouts bc your blood glucose level is low and you don’t have the luxury of drinking water when you want, hence try to not dehydrate yourself to avoid fainting. 

Also remember the regular: to hydrate  well and stretch before and after the exercise.  

2nd year physiotherapy: check ✔️ — 6 June,2016

2nd year physiotherapy: check ✔️

And finally i can breathe! I’m done with my sophomore year physio and i feel like i’ve finally conquered the monster, game over. 

This year was like nothing before in my 14 years of education! It was tough in everything, starting with getting deep into the major, to the heavy load of subjects and credit hours, to long days of clinical training & ICU. It was a wild roller coaster ride, let me tell you that! And i’ve never been glad to have my summer vacation like i am right now. 

This summer is gonna be long, but hopefully productive! I have a lot of plans on my to-do list, and hopefully will get them all done. And by productive i mean actually doing something, and making use of my time than just watching movies or shows or reading, which i’ll be also doing alot of! 

All i can say is adios sophomore year and hola summer! 

Tell what do you plan to do in your vacations if you have any! 

Walking, and its benefits!  — 3 June,2016

Walking, and its benefits! 

Walk 30-45mins daily, even if you don’t workout or hit the gym.Why?

A mere of 30-45 mins walk can:

* improve metabolism

* Improve blood circulation

* Regulate blood pressure & blood glucose level

* Burn fats (approx 400kcal/hr)

* Improve body hydration and absorption of water

* Improve muscular function

* Improve breathing patterns

* Detoxify the body

* Reduce stress

* Improve mood significantly

-To gain the most of your workout, interchange between walking, slow jogging, fast jogging and running

-Hydrate your body well before & after the walk, with few sips during the walk itself

-regulate your breathing pattern, maintain it on a medium rate, not too fast, not too slow, and keep a count of it while walking

Do some workout exercises after the walk to get the max benefit, like:

*2 sets of double leg squat

*2 sets of single leg squat

*2 sets of jump-squats

*2 sets jumping jacks

*2 sets of setups

*2 sets side setups

*A set of push-ups

*2 sets of wall push-ups

*10s blanks

-When combining the walk with exercises, you can burn approx. 700kcal after each session

-You can download a tracking app from the App Store to help you keep a track of the KM walked, the burned Cals, speed, heart rate etc

-it can motivate you also, if you set a specific distance as your daily goal, every time you reach your goal, you’ll be motivated to walk more the next time. 

N.B: don’t forget to stretch before the walk and before the exercises to avoid muscle soreness.