Dear you, 

You don’t have to pinpoint the feelings that you’re feeling. Stop labeling, quit categorizing your emotions. Yes, they’re a wild mess, but maybe that’s all what they’re supposed to be; just a wild mess of emotions. 

What you should do is embrace them, feel them, maybe even cry over them, then you move on, and you don’t look back, making room for other emotions to flow through. Do not dwell much on them, know and truly believe that you are mesmerizing just the way you are, 
A wild mess.